I confess that I went far too easy on Bill this week, for no good reason. Basically cus...I was really tired of him, I think. I was so upset with Laura and what was happening with her, and so scared of her total crazy-person meltdown that even talking about Bill felt like making him significant to the point of betrayal?
Like, this is going to sound lame, but I felt like if I just exhaustedly dismissed him and mentioned him in passing as that Crazy Old Enabler I could move on and not have to actually confront his significance in this mess?
Also, I'm still trying to finish this stupid fucking Bill vid (which is taking FOREVER because a) I've haven't been able to do much on it lately due to stress and moving and b) I'm comparatively unfamiliar with the footage) and I was worried I'd start to hate him to the point where I'd never finish the thing.
Which aren't GOOD excuses but they are the only ones I have. I just... The idea that he was worth my effort this week, even to NAILBAT, was exhausting.
If they kill Flipper, I will hold you while you cry!
EVEN THE THOUGHT THAT THEY MIGHT KILL FLIPPER MAKES ME WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME WHILE I CRY.
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Date: 2009-01-29 07:13 pm (UTC)Like, this is going to sound lame, but I felt like if I just exhaustedly dismissed him and mentioned him in passing as that Crazy Old Enabler I could move on and not have to actually confront his significance in this mess?
Also, I'm still trying to finish this stupid fucking Bill vid (which is taking FOREVER because a) I've haven't been able to do much on it lately due to stress and moving and b) I'm comparatively unfamiliar with the footage) and I was worried I'd start to hate him to the point where I'd never finish the thing.
Which aren't GOOD excuses but they are the only ones I have. I just... The idea that he was worth my effort this week, even to NAILBAT, was exhausting.
If they kill Flipper, I will hold you while you cry!
EVEN THE THOUGHT THAT THEY MIGHT KILL FLIPPER MAKES ME WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD ME WHILE I CRY.