I'm still not sure about what River remembers, and yeah, that's a stumbling block, but here's my take on a couple of things:
1) On her killing not the Doctor - she did. In Let's Kill Hitler, she did, and while she 'fixed' that, I can completely see her having a shit ton of guilt about it. Just like Amy has guilt about killing Madam K in a whole other timeline that didn't stick. The intent to kill was still there. That's part of why she was so childishly stubborn in the finale I think. She'd given so much up to fix that wrong act and for what? To be used again, because of Madam K's spite. And I think that was part if not all of the reason she was forced into the suit. Madam K was offended her creation tried to assert her own will.
2) The not dying alone thing. When the Doctor handed the messages over the Tesselacta, he didn't have a plan. He was accepting his death, I think, and he was honestly reporting to Churchhill what he was thinking when he handed over the envelopes. I gathered he came up with the way out only after that extra bit of help was offered by the captain. And then he goes forward with the messages because well, he knows they have to be sent to complete the loop.
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Date: 2011-10-08 06:52 am (UTC)I'm still not sure about what River remembers, and yeah, that's a stumbling block, but here's my take on a couple of things:
1) On her killing not the Doctor - she did. In Let's Kill Hitler, she did, and while she 'fixed' that, I can completely see her having a shit ton of guilt about it. Just like Amy has guilt about killing Madam K in a whole other timeline that didn't stick. The intent to kill was still there. That's part of why she was so childishly stubborn in the finale I think. She'd given so much up to fix that wrong act and for what? To be used again, because of Madam K's spite. And I think that was part if not all of the reason she was forced into the suit. Madam K was offended her creation tried to assert her own will.
2) The not dying alone thing. When the Doctor handed the messages over the Tesselacta, he didn't have a plan. He was accepting his death, I think, and he was honestly reporting to Churchhill what he was thinking when he handed over the envelopes. I gathered he came up with the way out only after that extra bit of help was offered by the captain. And then he goes forward with the messages because well, he knows they have to be sent to complete the loop.