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Jun. 3rd, 2007 12:27 pmUgh. Just got myself banned from my favourite forum for really stupid reasons that are my fault.
Went to post something in the spoiler thread, realised it should be in its own thread, meticulously removed all spoiler references except one really big one that was casually thrown in there, got banned for god knows how long. NOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF AT MY SHITHOLE OF A WORKPLACE?
Oh god, I'm stressed about work. Next week is going to be HELLISH. HELLISH I TELL YOU. And pathetic as it sounds that fucking forum was my comfort blanket in the long periods of enforce boredom-nothingness between the periods of extreme stress.
I think I mostly care because I feel so fucking stupid and now people will think badly of me... And I can't apologise because I'm banned. Fuck.
Which has totally removed my desire to actually go and read and respond to the backlog of journals on my flist which I was going to do this afternoon. Sorry guys, I'm lame.
And really, really, REALLY stressed about my SHITHOLE JOB. God I'm scared of next week. So scared I wanna cry. My boss is coming back to a massive mess after three weeks away and we're going to have to start doing all sorts of new shit with no fucking training and we're going to be blamed when we get it wrong. I just. Yes. Tears, I think. Fucking tears.
/end emo entry.
ETA: Thanks guys - you all rock. I'm feeling that I'm on much more of an even keel now, and that I will survive tomorrow at work even if I'm still scared of it. I considered locking off this entry, but I think I'll leave it stand. It'll be a good way to remind me next time I'm feeling like total shit that I won't [i]always[/i] feel that way; in fact, I may not even feel that way for very long, even if I can't conceptualise that fact at the time.
Went to post something in the spoiler thread, realised it should be in its own thread, meticulously removed all spoiler references except one really big one that was casually thrown in there, got banned for god knows how long. NOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF AT MY SHITHOLE OF A WORKPLACE?
Oh god, I'm stressed about work. Next week is going to be HELLISH. HELLISH I TELL YOU. And pathetic as it sounds that fucking forum was my comfort blanket in the long periods of enforce boredom-nothingness between the periods of extreme stress.
I think I mostly care because I feel so fucking stupid and now people will think badly of me... And I can't apologise because I'm banned. Fuck.
Which has totally removed my desire to actually go and read and respond to the backlog of journals on my flist which I was going to do this afternoon. Sorry guys, I'm lame.
And really, really, REALLY stressed about my SHITHOLE JOB. God I'm scared of next week. So scared I wanna cry. My boss is coming back to a massive mess after three weeks away and we're going to have to start doing all sorts of new shit with no fucking training and we're going to be blamed when we get it wrong. I just. Yes. Tears, I think. Fucking tears.
/end emo entry.
ETA: Thanks guys - you all rock. I'm feeling that I'm on much more of an even keel now, and that I will survive tomorrow at work even if I'm still scared of it. I considered locking off this entry, but I think I'll leave it stand. It'll be a good way to remind me next time I'm feeling like total shit that I won't [i]always[/i] feel that way; in fact, I may not even feel that way for very long, even if I can't conceptualise that fact at the time.
