*is stupid*

[beccatoria]

Ugh. Just got myself banned from my favourite forum for really stupid reasons that are my fault.

Went to post something in the spoiler thread, realised it should be in its own thread, meticulously removed all spoiler references except one really big one that was casually thrown in there, got banned for god knows how long. NOW WHAT AM I GOING TO DO TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF AT MY SHITHOLE OF A WORKPLACE?

Oh god, I'm stressed about work. Next week is going to be HELLISH. HELLISH I TELL YOU. And pathetic as it sounds that fucking forum was my comfort blanket in the long periods of enforce boredom-nothingness between the periods of extreme stress.

I think I mostly care because I feel so fucking stupid and now people will think badly of me... And I can't apologise because I'm banned. Fuck.

Which has totally removed my desire to actually go and read and respond to the backlog of journals on my flist which I was going to do this afternoon. Sorry guys, I'm lame.

And really, really, REALLY stressed about my SHITHOLE JOB. God I'm scared of next week. So scared I wanna cry. My boss is coming back to a massive mess after three weeks away and we're going to have to start doing all sorts of new shit with no fucking training and we're going to be blamed when we get it wrong. I just. Yes. Tears, I think. Fucking tears.

/end emo entry.

ETA: Thanks guys - you all rock. I'm feeling that I'm on much more of an even keel now, and that I will survive tomorrow at work even if I'm still scared of it. I considered locking off this entry, but I think I'll leave it stand. It'll be a good way to remind me next time I'm feeling like total shit that I won't [i]always[/i] feel that way; in fact, I may not even feel that way for very long, even if I can't conceptualise that fact at the time.

Comments

[beccatoria.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, and that caused a real shit storm. I was never sure why... I mean, the guy had been reduced to a walking pet-carpet with Han occasionally saying, "You said it, Chewie!" And then...ignoring him again...

[asta77.livejournal.com]

THEY KILLED CHEWIE?!?!

[beccatoria.livejournal.com]

OH MY GOD I SPOILED YOU! And yes. In some ways I think it was a service to his character the way they were underutilising him and turning him into Han's big dumb pet-friend.

His death at least provided the motivation for Han to go on a massive rampage of drunkenness...

I'd totally be up for Chewie-centred books set waaaay before he ever met Han, though. That'd be sweet. Ages ago they one of the computer games they proposed making (which never got past proposal stage) was, I think, about a Wookie bounty hunter/smuggler. And I had a wild hope it would be all about Chewie. But no. *sigh*

[asta77.livejournal.com]

Next thing you're going to tell me that C3P0 and R2D2 are not gay. ;p (I actually had that conversation with people on Friday night along with Han/Luke and some other stuff we won't get into. The internets have ruined my childhood!)

[gonzo21.livejournal.com]

Oh the internet totally ruins peoples childhoods. I remember when nightxade posted some of her old childhood toys, little stubby doll people type things, and, it really wasn't ~my~ fault they looked a bit like nazi buttplugs.

*brief pause while Simon wonders if he can say this to a total stranger*

*hits post anyway*

[asta77.livejournal.com]

Hee! Well, with other total strangers it might not be a good idea, but my mind has been in the gutter for several years now.

After I planted the C3PO/R2 seed which, surprisingly, had never even occurred to my friend, she made the comment C3PO might be gay, but he wouldn't become involved with R2. To which I asked who he would get involved with, Chewie? And then I recalled he spent much of 'Empire' strapped to Chewie's back.

Yes, I'm going to the special hell where I will be forced to watch the prequels endlessly.

[gonzo21.livejournal.com]

... not only was he strapped to chewies back, but they were both also technically naked.

Naked barebacking...

Was the harness that Chewie used leather by any chance?

[asta77.livejournal.com]

Good point.

And I'm guessing it was leather. Did they have synthetic fabrics in the SW universe?

[gonzo21.livejournal.com]

I don't think so. I'm pretty certain the Jedi Order went in for itchy-scratchy natural fabrics, to distract them from their lusty thoughts about other Jedi novices.

And I'm sorry, but the *only* reading of Phantom Menace that makes *any* sense of that film at all, is if Obi Wan and Qui Gonn are lovers.

Ah, the Forbidden LOve of master and pupil.

Of course, this is also the only thing that makes sense of the later Obi Wan/Anakin thing.

[beccatoria.livejournal.com]

I'm going to go out on a limb and point out that Artoo's constantly exposing his stiff, cylindrical appendage and sticking it into "ports" belonging to other machines.

I'm not sure that proves he's gay but it sure as hell proves he's a slut...

*joins you in the special hell*

[gonzo21.livejournal.com]

I wonder how many times Luke had to jam his lightsabre inside R2s Dome before the little pervert held onto it for him.

[gonzo21.livejournal.com]

He was certainly the character nobody ever wanted to pretend to be.

I wonder if he had spoken English.

Anyways, yes, fandom. Strange. It makes me think about Trek fandom, and their weird reactions whenever a character has ever been killed off.

And now i'm thinking about the death th reats Joss received when he killed Tara, and thus KILLED ALL LESBIANISM EVER!