ELECTION RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nov. 5th, 2008 06:13 pmOH THANK [INSERT DEITY/HIGHER POWER/EXPLETIVE OF YOUR CHOICE] FOR THAT.
Really. I know the polls predicted it but I didn't trust them after the illegalities of the last two and just...just...hope is fragile and I honestly felt like I had to convince myself losing was a possibility or I wouldn't be able to handle the crushing despair that would take me if it happened against the odds.
I was too afraid to take it for granted. So I'm just...massively massively relieved.
Like there's an actual feeling of adrenaline-relief going through my entire body, and I don't think I realised I was quite so consciously blocking feeling anything about it until it was over.
It's so weird to have a President I think was put into office legally.
I always loved that line, "I might not have voted for him, but he's my President," (though clearly not enough to remember who said it) as a way of approaching the idea that you can still expect your President to be responsible and honourable and good at the job even if it wasn't the President you hoped for (and conversely I guess it can be used to suggest that you need to shut up and support everything that President does, but I don't like thinking about it that way).
It was a really weird day when I realised that I didn't feel that way about George Bush. I didn't feel like I could claim him as my President because I didn't think he was anyone's President. Our President was elsewhere.
It's sort of weirder to now feel that there's someone in that office who is my President.
Yeah. It's...a sense of slightly dazed wonder that democracy worked this time and massive, massive relief.
Anyway, I'll end there. Everyone and their dogs are making posts about this, but that's as it should be.
ETA: So I finally got to watch Obama's victory speech. It was a good speech. I actually cried which makes me feel sort of dorky because while I cry at the drop of a hat, usually not about like, at speeches that I'm acutely aware are very cleverly crafted and think are about 50% excellent and 50% very cheesy.
Partly it was that "tears of joy brought on by adrenaline and emotional-all-over-the-placeness." I think it was also just because it kind of hit me how enormously huge this is, that I actually helped somehow, and that it's both wonderful and absolutely fucking terrifying.
Wonderful for obvious reasons; terrifying because it's so big. The everything's such a mess, the job is so huge, and it seems so impossible. I think true, honest hope goes hand in hand with terror. Because if there's no real and frightening chance that you might fail, it's not really hope, it's just an expectation.
I think perhaps this is the first time I've felt safe enough to really consider having hope, and the enormity, and, yes, to steal a quote, the audacity of that are...enough apparently to reduce me to tears.
Really. I know the polls predicted it but I didn't trust them after the illegalities of the last two and just...just...hope is fragile and I honestly felt like I had to convince myself losing was a possibility or I wouldn't be able to handle the crushing despair that would take me if it happened against the odds.
I was too afraid to take it for granted. So I'm just...massively massively relieved.
Like there's an actual feeling of adrenaline-relief going through my entire body, and I don't think I realised I was quite so consciously blocking feeling anything about it until it was over.
It's so weird to have a President I think was put into office legally.
I always loved that line, "I might not have voted for him, but he's my President," (though clearly not enough to remember who said it) as a way of approaching the idea that you can still expect your President to be responsible and honourable and good at the job even if it wasn't the President you hoped for (and conversely I guess it can be used to suggest that you need to shut up and support everything that President does, but I don't like thinking about it that way).
It was a really weird day when I realised that I didn't feel that way about George Bush. I didn't feel like I could claim him as my President because I didn't think he was anyone's President. Our President was elsewhere.
It's sort of weirder to now feel that there's someone in that office who is my President.
Yeah. It's...a sense of slightly dazed wonder that democracy worked this time and massive, massive relief.
Anyway, I'll end there. Everyone and their dogs are making posts about this, but that's as it should be.
ETA: So I finally got to watch Obama's victory speech. It was a good speech. I actually cried which makes me feel sort of dorky because while I cry at the drop of a hat, usually not about like, at speeches that I'm acutely aware are very cleverly crafted and think are about 50% excellent and 50% very cheesy.
Partly it was that "tears of joy brought on by adrenaline and emotional-all-over-the-placeness." I think it was also just because it kind of hit me how enormously huge this is, that I actually helped somehow, and that it's both wonderful and absolutely fucking terrifying.
Wonderful for obvious reasons; terrifying because it's so big. The everything's such a mess, the job is so huge, and it seems so impossible. I think true, honest hope goes hand in hand with terror. Because if there's no real and frightening chance that you might fail, it's not really hope, it's just an expectation.
I think perhaps this is the first time I've felt safe enough to really consider having hope, and the enormity, and, yes, to steal a quote, the audacity of that are...enough apparently to reduce me to tears.
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Date: 2008-11-05 01:02 pm (UTC)Not that I think Obama is the PERFECT candidate. I do hope he can live up to it all and do what he says he will. Or rather, I do hope that America will get behind him and let him try and understand that, as he said, it isn't going to happen tomorrow.
I was impressed by the speech. It wasn't what I expected, particularly after hearing McCain's (which was positive and good). Obama's wasn't just a woohoo we won thing - it was a harsh reality speech. Especially the part where he called on Americans to make sacrifices to move forward...
I hope the haters can move past and remember that he is now their president too, as you said. Guilliani was interviewed and was asked what he would feel as a Republican and he said that tomorrow (today), we're all Americans.
I hope everyone remembers that.
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Date: 2008-11-06 11:42 am (UTC)I think it was wise to make a reality-based speech. No one will remember, of course, and I confess that even with a fairly realistic view of what can be accomplished, I'm...hoping for something at least larger than the usual "nothing changes," attitude. But...I trust him to really try you know? And that's a start.
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Date: 2008-11-05 02:15 pm (UTC)I wish I had time to share my thoughts with everyone, but I need to get dressed, finish packing, and get on a plane. Maybe I'll jot down some thoughts on the plane. And I still owe you some responses. ;)
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Date: 2008-11-06 11:50 am (UTC)And don't worry about owing me responses: I'm sure I owe you half a dozen! :D I'll look forward to reading your thoughts if/when you get the chance to share them!
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Date: 2008-11-09 04:26 pm (UTC)I hope he makes you feel proud about the USA again or at least not like you've got something to feel sorry about. Not that you ever should have done in the first place.
Makes me wonder with all the fuss about Lewis Hamilton and Obama over the last week. They are both black but both have white mothers, so does this not make them both as much white as they are black?
I dont want to get into all this rubbish people like Jesse Jackson once said about "about he's black but not black enough" but i do wonder if for all the people where race is an issue did it make a difference at all? I hope i havent come across like an idiot its just a point that greatly intrests me. He was clearly the best choice for president by a long shot. Just wish Bush would move house sooner.
Hugely relieved here, too.
Date: 2008-11-13 07:25 pm (UTC)(I really, really wish I didn't live in a world that made me sound like a tinfoil-hatted madperson so often...)
Re: Hugely relieved here, too.
Date: 2008-11-14 03:54 pm (UTC)YAY! You're right, that is always good to know.
(I really, really wish I didn't live in a world that made me sound like a tinfoil-hatted madperson so often...)
If it helps, I find your tinfoil hat very fetching and thoroughly expect it to look a good bit less ridiculous to others in fifty years time?
Re: Hugely relieved here, too.
Date: 2008-11-14 04:15 pm (UTC)No, actually that doesn't help at all, and I really *want* it to look utterly ridiculous in fifty years time.
Re: Hugely relieved here, too.
Date: 2008-11-14 04:47 pm (UTC)Therefore:
Either you're right and therefore aren't wearing a tinfoil hat, or we all get to live!
It's not exactly a win-win situation, but at least it means that you don't have to die while wearing a ridiculous tinfoil hat?
Re: Hugely relieved here, too.
Date: 2008-11-16 07:20 pm (UTC)