You think Kara has, but Gaeta hasn't? Interesting. He did fire on that raptor. And Zarek is definitely a razor. Some of the mutineers are too. Skulls, but not Racetrack. Gage, but not Neward. And I disagree, Cain turned her humanity off. I think she did big time to let her men gang-rape her former lover. They felt beyond rage and revenge to me. Or even shooting her X.O. Gaeta is not quite there yet, but sadly he is heading there.
Well, that's not quite what I mean. What I mean is being able to completely detach yourself from what you're doing, like you disconnect.
It's obviously a matter of pure opinion since Kara was definitely enjoying herself, but in a weird way I felt that was because she was finally in a situation where she was free to act and not really consider the consequences. Just do whatever the hell it was necessary to do until she could be human again. And for Kara that distance from having to think about anything beyond the exact second she's living in is really, really freeing.
Kendra is an example of this in a flatter way, but again, Kendra managed to do terrible things, and be a very similar person to Kara without losing what she was.
That, to me, is a Razor. "When you can be this, for as long as you have to be, then you're a razor."
The problem is, that Cain wasn't "this" for as long as she had to be. She wasn't a keen blade that sliced through everything and just acted, free movement, living in the instant, not flinching.
Cain was something else. She wasn't emotionally unattached. She was too emotionally attached and she used all her "razor" and "don't flinch" bullshit to act like it was a rational response but really she was just full of anger and vengeance and rage.
I think I made a mistake by appropriating Cain's terminology and using it in my own fanonical way. But I guess what I mean is that no, neither Cain nor Gaeta have managed to detach themselves from their humanity. Cain just managed to detach herself from all the good parts of her humanity and totally wallow in all the awful parts. She didn't stop being human, she just became a really, really shitty one.
And while Gaeta's not on Cain's level (and I hope he doesn't get there and that there's some redemption for him before the end), I do think that the journey he's on is more like Cain's rather than Kendra's pure detachment from her entire existence, from good, from bad, from anything except the sum of her choices and the effects of her actions?
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Date: 2009-02-01 05:08 pm (UTC)Well, that's not quite what I mean. What I mean is being able to completely detach yourself from what you're doing, like you disconnect.
It's obviously a matter of pure opinion since Kara was definitely enjoying herself, but in a weird way I felt that was because she was finally in a situation where she was free to act and not really consider the consequences. Just do whatever the hell it was necessary to do until she could be human again. And for Kara that distance from having to think about anything beyond the exact second she's living in is really, really freeing.
Kendra is an example of this in a flatter way, but again, Kendra managed to do terrible things, and be a very similar person to Kara without losing what she was.
That, to me, is a Razor. "When you can be this, for as long as you have to be, then you're a razor."
The problem is, that Cain wasn't "this" for as long as she had to be. She wasn't a keen blade that sliced through everything and just acted, free movement, living in the instant, not flinching.
Cain was something else. She wasn't emotionally unattached. She was too emotionally attached and she used all her "razor" and "don't flinch" bullshit to act like it was a rational response but really she was just full of anger and vengeance and rage.
I think I made a mistake by appropriating Cain's terminology and using it in my own fanonical way. But I guess what I mean is that no, neither Cain nor Gaeta have managed to detach themselves from their humanity. Cain just managed to detach herself from all the good parts of her humanity and totally wallow in all the awful parts. She didn't stop being human, she just became a really, really shitty one.
And while Gaeta's not on Cain's level (and I hope he doesn't get there and that there's some redemption for him before the end), I do think that the journey he's on is more like Cain's rather than Kendra's pure detachment from her entire existence, from good, from bad, from anything except the sum of her choices and the effects of her actions?
*hopes this makes sense!*