BSG: The Ties That Bind
Apr. 20th, 2008 12:17 amI cannot process this episode. However, hopefully, that means that this entry will be an exercise in brevity. Well...at least by comparison to last week's mammoth overload, which is not saying much. ;)
It's not that I think anything in this episode was particularly awful, or unbelievable. I think I'm just overinvested, and confused, and...I can't process it. I suppose that means it blew my mind?
It's everything I wanted, twisted. Not deliciously twisted: bitterly twisted. Twisted in a way that makes me recoil. I cannot decide if this is an absolutely excellent thing or not. Certainly I think this episode was meant to make me uncomfortable. If certain parts were meant to make me this uncomfortable, I can't be sure.
For instance, Lee and Laura:
I've been waiting a long time for them to get a plotline together, and now we get this. I'm not upset that there's tension between them. I'm upset that I don't know how they're going to play it. And by that I mean, at the start of season two, there was tension between them. But they were working together. I loved it when they fought because it was clear there was still an underlying respect between them.
For a long time, Laura has been the only primarily political main character on the show. Her complexity lies in the fact that she plays both good cop and bad cop simultaneously. There's a reason that watching her airlock Leoben, when we know she's so damn good inside is more interesting than watching her airlock him if we just thought she was cold and brutal.
I can't deny she's changed, nor would I want to. This is the woman who carried my love of her character through trying to rig an election - something that is a powerfully horrible thing in my mind. Every time she's done something I thought stepped over the line, she's pulled me back with her compassion and her deep belief in - if not democracy - certainly idealistic democratic principles even if she feels she can't currently defend them.
Suddenly, we have Lee in the political arena to play good cop.
I admit to feeling a little betrayed and worried by the sudden introduction of Laura's bad cop tendencies by Zarek. I know damn well she's been more authoritarian and dictatorial of late. What I don't know is how much of what Zarek is saying is true. And if she's trying to bypass good, fair laws, dammit, I want to see her do that on screen and get a chance to go through it with her. Not suddenly get told by Zarek that she's turning into a benevolent tyrant, to provide Lee with someone to make a stand against.
And I worry that's where this show is going. Because Laura&Bill as benevolent dictators with Lee as the angsty, lone idealist has been where this show's been headed since 2x07 and maybe I oughta just...admit that the writing is on the wall.
And yet Zarek's information on the Demetrius is actually inaccurate in his use of it to characterise Laura. And also, he makes a fabulous point that Laura accumulates the powers of a tyrant not for the sake of power but to save everyone. I suppose it's a theory that can only be put to the test in practice, but it genuinely seems to me that she doesn't crave power for its own sake. Of course, when she is the sole determiner of when she has "enough" to save everyone and when everyone is "safe", is there a difference? I think what Zarek was getting at and what I believe is that she really is a lot more just and rational than most tyrants and that her criteria for declaring everyone "safe" are probably fairly sane, rational criteria.
So yeah. I have no idea what in the hell to make of that.
As our next example, let's look at Boomer:
I always thought that her character arc was tragic and understandable, but would have been more so if we'd seen the frustration that lead her to threaten to snap Hera's neck, or had we seen her scream at the kid but not physically threaten her.
But I got it. I did. She tried to hang on to "Boomer" and New Caprica happened. She tried to substitute for Athena and Hera rejected her. Nobody gives a shit about Boomer not even the show, because it leaves her, hanging, then has her show up for what? To treat her like dirt again. And yeah. I bought her swing vote. Her dulled senses. Her pain. Her absolute frakking bitterness.
And now she's frakking Cavil?
And I just...that makes me uncomfortable. Cus it's so fucking wrong.
Which is perhaps why it makes horrible sense.
Does it?
Again, I can't tell.
Which brings us to our third contestant, Tory.
I desperately want more of her - to learn who she is. To have her be interesting. And she is here! She's really interesting, and really different, and it makes me damned uncomfortable.
Again, is this good?
Let me see if I can explain my take on her. I think the fact that she "doesn't entirely hate this," is intriguing. Freeing even. We know Tory is hugely driven. Having taken to heart the idea she's not inherently evil, the notion that the rules may not apply to her (the way I don't think she ever thought they did: she rigged an election) takes on intriguing and experimentationally new meanings.
Ignoring what happened to Cally for a minute (I'll get to that, believe me!), I'm not sure I disagree with Tory's attitude. Penitant or fearful won't help anyone. Tory grabs onto the idea that she has the inalienable right to exist and she's not wrong in that. She's not wrong that she doesn't need to feel inherently guilty about who she is.
She's not even wrong to actively seek enlightemnent about who and what she is, or to enjoy it.
Perhaps I was just so terrified she'd decide Baltar was her messiah, I'm overjoyed that apparently she's decided she's her own damn messiah.
Unfortunately, that apparently comes with added murder.
Her delivery to Cally in the airlock was...weird. Rekha Sharma is - from what I've seen of her (which is limited to BSG) a great actress - but that delivery was a bizarre mix of stiff and casual. At the time I read it as fear and uncertainty causing her to be stilted. She was, after all, talking down a suicidal woman from killing herself and her infant.
In retrospect, I wonder if it's because she knew what she was going to do from the start. Either way, it becomes chilling, since I'm convinced it was a deliberate choice on the part of the actress.
And bloody hell. Yes, I know that Cally probably wouldn't have kept her mouth shut. I also don't think that Tory or Tyrol or Tigh (huh, lots of Ts there if we include Sam's middle name!) would be immediately executed. After all, Caprica Six wasn't, and they wouldn't want to send them back with lots of juicy intel to a Basestar even if they didn't believe that they were "different" somehow. So it's murder in the defence of what? Continued liberty?
Now we step into the realms of deciding not that your life is equal in value to someone else's, but that you're more important. Messiahs, I suppose.
God, Tory, that was cold. And terrifying. And fascinating. And now that the show has successfully not added you to Baltar's harem, can it please not turn you into a villain either?
See? As I said: I think I'm just so totally overinvested in this show I'm losing the ability to think critically and have started panicking. Hmm. I should do something about that.
Moving on to Cally: she's the one person I actually understood pretty much from start to finish. I liked her a lot in the mini series and through early season 2. I think after that, I discovered that tha actress can only really act three states well: shy, hysterical and shrill. Fortunately, this episode was comprised mostly of the latter two, so I could mostly overlook the slightly weaker Cottle scenes, etc., and she did an okay job of someone who was spinning out.
As the series has progressed, I've liked her less. I was actually really quite sympathetic - in a twisted way - to her shooting Boomer. But past that, slowly, I've found her more and more unsympathetic. But I feel guilty about that. I have no idea if I'd have done any better than her in her situation. And at the start of this episode, I did remember, forcefully, that she's a kid. Well, okay, by now she's probably like, twenty two or something, which is nearly as old as me. But...she's younger than me! And she's in the middle of a post-apocalyptic world stuck with a kid she's probably too young and too stressed to look after and her husband is having an identity crisis she doesn't know about and is therefore paying her crisis no attention. And she's been rounded up to be shot twice the past six months, once by her own commanding officer.
Truthfully, I think she's suffering from psychotic depression. Maybe she hasn't undergone things that other people have, maybe she's undergone things other people haven't, people react in different ways to stress. And I like thinking that she's got psychotic depression (and possibly also post-partum depression, which can occasionally manifest psychotic features I think?) because it's a very real thing. It's something that happens, and would happen in this sort of situation.
I say psychotic because firstly, that sort of depression tends to have more extreme suicidal reactions as characteristic, and secondly because she was starting to "remember" things that didn't happen when she was flashing back to the scene in Joe's Bar. Tyrol never leaned in to kiss Tory. And psychotic depression can also be characterised by a more generalised depression with bursts of auditory/visual hallucinations. Plus increased stress (like discovering your husband's a cylon) and chemical abuse (she was popping pills) can often trigger psychotic episodes.
(Note: this is dime-store psychology. I have no qualifications or anything, I just worked as an administrator for the mental health services for a few years and had to spend most of my days reading referrals to psychiatrists and CPNs. So don't go trusting me or anything!)
You know, at first, I thought she was going to airlock the baby for being half cylon. And the fact this show nearly convinced me that was the case is...impressive.
The fact that I'd rather Cally have tried that, and Tory have shown up like an avenging angel, saved Nicky and vented Cally is probably not healthy, and the fact that the show refused to make it "easy" like that - like killing Jammer wasn't easy - is to its credit even if it's not to my comfort.
When I realised that she was going to kill them both though - I think my heart broke a little. Because there it is. A crazy woman who thinks her kid is half evil, and can't kill him and live without him, and can't kill herself and leave him. Bloody hell, BSG, just bloody hell.
Whatever else went on in this episode, I was impressed by your being able to play that and getting me to buy into that storyline.
Cally, I'm sorry you went crazy and got murdered.
One thing I liked was Kara. I'm not sure how she went from utterly unbuckled in both joy and rage, to this. Buckled down. But probably her own frustrations played a large part. Either way, those shots were deliberate and yes, she's losing is a little and becoming the driven part of Ahab and the screwed up part of Kurtzweil, and it's all a little creepy. But pretty cool. And that's all I have to say about that.
No, wait - I thought that the dialogue when Sam shows up was awfully clunky by BSG standards. If they trusted their actors more, they could have accomplished all of that with nearly no lines, and certainly nothing so...bluntly obvious?
I was interested in the scene afterwards though. Something about the way Sam was sat behind her, with his leg visible and Kara wasn't looking at him...I dunno. I like the composition of the shot.
Other random points:
I really hope Natalie's not dead! I don't think she is, if only because I'm convinced the D'Anna's will be back before the end of the season, and for that to happen, the cylon rebellion has to survive.
Who's looking after Hera? I can't imagine she's on the sewage ship, but then I can't imagine that Helo and Athena would have felt safe leaving her with anyone either...
Joe's has enough paper for printed napkins?!
How exactly is Tory gonna explain this one? Cally committed suicide but happened to leave her in the hanger where Tory just happened to be? Even if she keeps it a secret in general, how is she gonna explain it to the Chief? Spin a tale about how she wrestled the kid off of his wife? I almost want her to tell the truth and for the Chief to just...numbly accept it. Cus...dark. And I kinda trust this show with the dark.
BSG, you still own my soul. And my heart. Please be careful with them.
It's not that I think anything in this episode was particularly awful, or unbelievable. I think I'm just overinvested, and confused, and...I can't process it. I suppose that means it blew my mind?
It's everything I wanted, twisted. Not deliciously twisted: bitterly twisted. Twisted in a way that makes me recoil. I cannot decide if this is an absolutely excellent thing or not. Certainly I think this episode was meant to make me uncomfortable. If certain parts were meant to make me this uncomfortable, I can't be sure.
For instance, Lee and Laura:
I've been waiting a long time for them to get a plotline together, and now we get this. I'm not upset that there's tension between them. I'm upset that I don't know how they're going to play it. And by that I mean, at the start of season two, there was tension between them. But they were working together. I loved it when they fought because it was clear there was still an underlying respect between them.
For a long time, Laura has been the only primarily political main character on the show. Her complexity lies in the fact that she plays both good cop and bad cop simultaneously. There's a reason that watching her airlock Leoben, when we know she's so damn good inside is more interesting than watching her airlock him if we just thought she was cold and brutal.
I can't deny she's changed, nor would I want to. This is the woman who carried my love of her character through trying to rig an election - something that is a powerfully horrible thing in my mind. Every time she's done something I thought stepped over the line, she's pulled me back with her compassion and her deep belief in - if not democracy - certainly idealistic democratic principles even if she feels she can't currently defend them.
Suddenly, we have Lee in the political arena to play good cop.
I admit to feeling a little betrayed and worried by the sudden introduction of Laura's bad cop tendencies by Zarek. I know damn well she's been more authoritarian and dictatorial of late. What I don't know is how much of what Zarek is saying is true. And if she's trying to bypass good, fair laws, dammit, I want to see her do that on screen and get a chance to go through it with her. Not suddenly get told by Zarek that she's turning into a benevolent tyrant, to provide Lee with someone to make a stand against.
And I worry that's where this show is going. Because Laura&Bill as benevolent dictators with Lee as the angsty, lone idealist has been where this show's been headed since 2x07 and maybe I oughta just...admit that the writing is on the wall.
And yet Zarek's information on the Demetrius is actually inaccurate in his use of it to characterise Laura. And also, he makes a fabulous point that Laura accumulates the powers of a tyrant not for the sake of power but to save everyone. I suppose it's a theory that can only be put to the test in practice, but it genuinely seems to me that she doesn't crave power for its own sake. Of course, when she is the sole determiner of when she has "enough" to save everyone and when everyone is "safe", is there a difference? I think what Zarek was getting at and what I believe is that she really is a lot more just and rational than most tyrants and that her criteria for declaring everyone "safe" are probably fairly sane, rational criteria.
So yeah. I have no idea what in the hell to make of that.
As our next example, let's look at Boomer:
I always thought that her character arc was tragic and understandable, but would have been more so if we'd seen the frustration that lead her to threaten to snap Hera's neck, or had we seen her scream at the kid but not physically threaten her.
But I got it. I did. She tried to hang on to "Boomer" and New Caprica happened. She tried to substitute for Athena and Hera rejected her. Nobody gives a shit about Boomer not even the show, because it leaves her, hanging, then has her show up for what? To treat her like dirt again. And yeah. I bought her swing vote. Her dulled senses. Her pain. Her absolute frakking bitterness.
And now she's frakking Cavil?
And I just...that makes me uncomfortable. Cus it's so fucking wrong.
Which is perhaps why it makes horrible sense.
Does it?
Again, I can't tell.
Which brings us to our third contestant, Tory.
I desperately want more of her - to learn who she is. To have her be interesting. And she is here! She's really interesting, and really different, and it makes me damned uncomfortable.
Again, is this good?
Let me see if I can explain my take on her. I think the fact that she "doesn't entirely hate this," is intriguing. Freeing even. We know Tory is hugely driven. Having taken to heart the idea she's not inherently evil, the notion that the rules may not apply to her (the way I don't think she ever thought they did: she rigged an election) takes on intriguing and experimentationally new meanings.
Ignoring what happened to Cally for a minute (I'll get to that, believe me!), I'm not sure I disagree with Tory's attitude. Penitant or fearful won't help anyone. Tory grabs onto the idea that she has the inalienable right to exist and she's not wrong in that. She's not wrong that she doesn't need to feel inherently guilty about who she is.
She's not even wrong to actively seek enlightemnent about who and what she is, or to enjoy it.
Perhaps I was just so terrified she'd decide Baltar was her messiah, I'm overjoyed that apparently she's decided she's her own damn messiah.
Unfortunately, that apparently comes with added murder.
Her delivery to Cally in the airlock was...weird. Rekha Sharma is - from what I've seen of her (which is limited to BSG) a great actress - but that delivery was a bizarre mix of stiff and casual. At the time I read it as fear and uncertainty causing her to be stilted. She was, after all, talking down a suicidal woman from killing herself and her infant.
In retrospect, I wonder if it's because she knew what she was going to do from the start. Either way, it becomes chilling, since I'm convinced it was a deliberate choice on the part of the actress.
And bloody hell. Yes, I know that Cally probably wouldn't have kept her mouth shut. I also don't think that Tory or Tyrol or Tigh (huh, lots of Ts there if we include Sam's middle name!) would be immediately executed. After all, Caprica Six wasn't, and they wouldn't want to send them back with lots of juicy intel to a Basestar even if they didn't believe that they were "different" somehow. So it's murder in the defence of what? Continued liberty?
Now we step into the realms of deciding not that your life is equal in value to someone else's, but that you're more important. Messiahs, I suppose.
God, Tory, that was cold. And terrifying. And fascinating. And now that the show has successfully not added you to Baltar's harem, can it please not turn you into a villain either?
See? As I said: I think I'm just so totally overinvested in this show I'm losing the ability to think critically and have started panicking. Hmm. I should do something about that.
Moving on to Cally: she's the one person I actually understood pretty much from start to finish. I liked her a lot in the mini series and through early season 2. I think after that, I discovered that tha actress can only really act three states well: shy, hysterical and shrill. Fortunately, this episode was comprised mostly of the latter two, so I could mostly overlook the slightly weaker Cottle scenes, etc., and she did an okay job of someone who was spinning out.
As the series has progressed, I've liked her less. I was actually really quite sympathetic - in a twisted way - to her shooting Boomer. But past that, slowly, I've found her more and more unsympathetic. But I feel guilty about that. I have no idea if I'd have done any better than her in her situation. And at the start of this episode, I did remember, forcefully, that she's a kid. Well, okay, by now she's probably like, twenty two or something, which is nearly as old as me. But...she's younger than me! And she's in the middle of a post-apocalyptic world stuck with a kid she's probably too young and too stressed to look after and her husband is having an identity crisis she doesn't know about and is therefore paying her crisis no attention. And she's been rounded up to be shot twice the past six months, once by her own commanding officer.
Truthfully, I think she's suffering from psychotic depression. Maybe she hasn't undergone things that other people have, maybe she's undergone things other people haven't, people react in different ways to stress. And I like thinking that she's got psychotic depression (and possibly also post-partum depression, which can occasionally manifest psychotic features I think?) because it's a very real thing. It's something that happens, and would happen in this sort of situation.
I say psychotic because firstly, that sort of depression tends to have more extreme suicidal reactions as characteristic, and secondly because she was starting to "remember" things that didn't happen when she was flashing back to the scene in Joe's Bar. Tyrol never leaned in to kiss Tory. And psychotic depression can also be characterised by a more generalised depression with bursts of auditory/visual hallucinations. Plus increased stress (like discovering your husband's a cylon) and chemical abuse (she was popping pills) can often trigger psychotic episodes.
(Note: this is dime-store psychology. I have no qualifications or anything, I just worked as an administrator for the mental health services for a few years and had to spend most of my days reading referrals to psychiatrists and CPNs. So don't go trusting me or anything!)
You know, at first, I thought she was going to airlock the baby for being half cylon. And the fact this show nearly convinced me that was the case is...impressive.
The fact that I'd rather Cally have tried that, and Tory have shown up like an avenging angel, saved Nicky and vented Cally is probably not healthy, and the fact that the show refused to make it "easy" like that - like killing Jammer wasn't easy - is to its credit even if it's not to my comfort.
When I realised that she was going to kill them both though - I think my heart broke a little. Because there it is. A crazy woman who thinks her kid is half evil, and can't kill him and live without him, and can't kill herself and leave him. Bloody hell, BSG, just bloody hell.
Whatever else went on in this episode, I was impressed by your being able to play that and getting me to buy into that storyline.
Cally, I'm sorry you went crazy and got murdered.
One thing I liked was Kara. I'm not sure how she went from utterly unbuckled in both joy and rage, to this. Buckled down. But probably her own frustrations played a large part. Either way, those shots were deliberate and yes, she's losing is a little and becoming the driven part of Ahab and the screwed up part of Kurtzweil, and it's all a little creepy. But pretty cool. And that's all I have to say about that.
No, wait - I thought that the dialogue when Sam shows up was awfully clunky by BSG standards. If they trusted their actors more, they could have accomplished all of that with nearly no lines, and certainly nothing so...bluntly obvious?
I was interested in the scene afterwards though. Something about the way Sam was sat behind her, with his leg visible and Kara wasn't looking at him...I dunno. I like the composition of the shot.
Other random points:
I really hope Natalie's not dead! I don't think she is, if only because I'm convinced the D'Anna's will be back before the end of the season, and for that to happen, the cylon rebellion has to survive.
Who's looking after Hera? I can't imagine she's on the sewage ship, but then I can't imagine that Helo and Athena would have felt safe leaving her with anyone either...
Joe's has enough paper for printed napkins?!
How exactly is Tory gonna explain this one? Cally committed suicide but happened to leave her in the hanger where Tory just happened to be? Even if she keeps it a secret in general, how is she gonna explain it to the Chief? Spin a tale about how she wrestled the kid off of his wife? I almost want her to tell the truth and for the Chief to just...numbly accept it. Cus...dark. And I kinda trust this show with the dark.
BSG, you still own my soul. And my heart. Please be careful with them.
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Date: 2008-04-20 01:56 am (UTC)Kara/Sam-can't wait to see where this goes. and i like the comaparison between Kara and Capt.Ahab. =)
Tory was creepy. Ms. Sharma is just perfect for the role.
and i know i'm in the minority here, but for me the seperation between Kara and Lee will be pure bliss for for however long it lasts.
this season started out with a bang, let's hope it keeps it up.
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Date: 2008-04-20 12:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-04-20 01:28 pm (UTC)Its strange because i love my fiction dark but that was too dark even for me. Its so much easier to see whole planets and spaceships blown apart but Callys death totally blindsided me. I was certain she would of backed down and in the end she would just of been convinced she had imagedned what had happened due to the pills and lack of sleep. Would of happened in 99% of other shows.
I wondered if Tory showed that Cylon super strength that the series seems to forget alot of the time or was that just a well placed punch.
Im not invested in the show at all in the way some people are. I dont get what people see in some of the characters. The way people can derive so much information from a minute or 2 screen time from one character. To me Rosalin is WOW! just a strong female lead (go sister!) Im more intrested in the space battles, what are the cylons, what and where and when is earth. Yet i was still totally shocked about the way it made me feel even now a day later. Im not sure i could even watch the episode again for a while.
In science fiction and fantasy you become so use to a character being killed one week only to return the next. I love BSGs aproach it makes the show feel so much more adult in a way that the sex and naked bodies never seems to do. It makes the rest of the journey to earth seem all the more perilous.
One thing i did like about Callys death though (does that sounds wrong?) is that with the cylon cival war going on (by half the fleet did they mean 50% of all cylons?) the threat to galactica is slighty reducded. Nice to be reminded how fragile their existance still is though. This is only slighty reduced though by the fact that the final five aint likley to get bumped off any time soon.
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Date: 2008-04-20 08:48 pm (UTC)Perhaps I was just so terrified she'd decide Baltar was her messiah, I'm overjoyed that apparently she's decided she's her own damn messiah.
I do wonder if Tory has a god complex going. She's not just a Cylon, she knows she is a special Cylon and that D'Anna saw the faces of the final five in a temple. Does she view herself as a Cylon god? If she does she can justify her actions as a necessity - she must continue to exist and if that means murdering Cally to do so then that is what must be done.
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Date: 2008-04-21 01:15 pm (UTC)and i know i'm in the minority here, but for me the seperation between Kara and Lee will be pure bliss for for however long it lasts.
I don't mind them together when they're being friends, and when the romantic angle (if there is one) is allowed to develop naturally and unobtrusively and they're still given character arcs of their own. So scenes like the one in the last episode are...genuinely lovely to me.
However! Most of the time when they're together the writing for both of them degenerates into bad soap extremely quickly and both characters' stories suffer as a result.
So yes, I prefer them apart mainly because I don't think the writers write them as well together as they do apart (with some notable exceptions).
this season started out with a bang, let's hope it keeps it up.
Indeed!
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Date: 2008-04-21 01:18 pm (UTC)Well, like I said, these particular dark storylines I'm not sure how to process because of what they do to the characters.
And I'm wondering if that in itself is dark? That it's just finally affecting me?
I don't know. It's not that I hate it or dislike it even. It's just there's a part of my mind that reacts by tuning out and refusing to acknowledge that it makes any sense. Which is odd.
Though like I said, not necessarily bad in terms of quality.
As to who else will die...they're running out of minor characters! I wonder if it'll be a big name...
I kinda think they'll off Roslin halfway through the season. Though whether she'll be back as the final cylon is the question, isn't it...?
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Date: 2008-04-21 01:22 pm (UTC)Yeah. Although as I said above, I don't know if it's too dark, or just somehow incomprehensible because of the leaps it takes, or if that is what makes it so dark. I'm also not sure I dislike it. In fact I think it was really well done. I just - yeah. I dunno. It was weird. My inability to articulate my feelings on this point kinda illustrates that, doesn't it!
I wondered if Tory showed that Cylon super strength that the series seems to forget alot of the time or was that just a well placed punch.
I think it was cylon superstrength. She mentioned that since she realised who she was she felt she was becoming aware of physical changes - liking ambrosia, feeling things more keenly. I think perhaps her physical cylon attributes have been activated?
In science fiction and fantasy you become so use to a character being killed one week only to return the next. I love BSGs aproach it makes the show feel so much more adult in a way that the sex and naked bodies never seems to do. It makes the rest of the journey to earth seem all the more perilous.
Absolutely! And more so considering that everyone who dies could come back as a cylon, and Starbuck has returned from the dead. To keep that feeling of realism and peril despite that is pretty good, I think.
with the cylon cival war going on (by half the fleet did they mean 50% of all cylons?) the threat to galactica is slighty reducded.
Definitely true: we have a reason now as to why attacks and following the Galactica will be reduced.
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Date: 2008-04-21 01:26 pm (UTC)I do wonder if Tory has a god complex going. She's not just a Cylon, she knows she is a special Cylon and that D'Anna saw the faces of the final five in a temple. Does she view herself as a Cylon god?
Wow - I hadn't thought of herself considering herself to be a Cylon god, but yeah, I totally agree with the rest of that. I think that her way of coping might be tripping on her own power. Choosing to believe this makes her special instead of evil - because those really are her only two choices.
I still like my previous understanding of human!Tory. That she was incredibly driven without much to fill her personally, and tended to express that through ruthlessness and ruthless devotion. I wasn't sure how she'd respond to suddenly losing her right to an individual identity but I think maybe I got it backwards and this gave her one. And now she can be ruthlessly devoted to herself.
Though...I really hope she's still loyal to Roslin. Or that she wants to be, conflicting interests aside. Because that's the part of her character that, so far, I find most interesting. And I do find her fascinating (as you know) and I'd rather she carry on being fascinating and not just a villain (though I doubt that'll happen. This is the show that casts a baby-neck-snapper in a sympathetic light!)