beccatoria: (commander space jesus)
HELLO PEOPLE!

Okay firstly, I am really sorry I fell off the face of the internet a bit (well except twitter: timesuck of timesucks). There were a couple of reasons, some realworldy, some Dragon Age Inquisition-related, but I'm back now. I've also been trying to pare down this review post for like...a week and I've finally just given up.

So this is ridiculously long and serves as much as an archive of my feelings for the future as something I expect anyone to actually read all of, but I have tried to segment it in ways that are sensible and I encourage people to skip to the bits that interest them rather than trying to read this...novel. On Christmas Eve. ;)

Anyway: The Main Event.

How I Feel About The Setting In General. )

Technical Gameplay Stuff. )

Faux-Open World Exploration: The Best-Worst Thing? )

The Story! The Actual Plot of the Game! )

Cassandra: my darling. )

Solas, Sera and (Not Really Welsh) Elves. )

Vivienne, the Mage-Templar Conflict and Inquisition's Villain Problem. )

The Qun, The Bull and Krem. )

At which point, I have thought all the thoughts and said all the things. Though if anyone has any other things they would like to talk with me about, I would definitely be up for discussion in comments even if it has nothing to do with anything I wrote above.

BOOYAH.
beccatoria: (diana of themiscyra)
Title: Apple Candy
Video: DC Animated
Audio: Apple Candy // Ben Lee
Summary: I want you, and I want him. [Wonder Woman/Superman/Batman OT3]
Vidder's Notes: HAPPY BIRTHDAY, [personal profile] chaila. I'M SORRY IT'S LATE BUT NOW THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS YOUR our SECRET SHAME.

PASSWORD: vidses

Apple Candy

Direct download available here. RightClickSaveAs. 70 megs approx.

Cross-posted to [livejournal.com profile] vidding and [community profile] vidding

Other vids available here.

beccatoria: (londo loves it!)
SO. Earlier this week I discovered an amazing programme! It is called Musescore and it is a free, open source, platform agnostic (Windows, Mac, Linux, even BSD) programme that lets you score music and play it back.

I mean, it's not perfect - the default soundfont (what the instruments sound like) wasn't amazing, so I downloaded a different one, and playback has some limitations as it was initially implements as more of a "checking" service than a way to create a final product. But it's pretty freaking good, and the piano, particularly, sounds fairly authentic.

YOU GUYS. This programme.

This is just a fucking AMAZING demonstration of the democratisation of information and creativity and education on the internet.

I decided to compose something. I haven't done that since I was about 16 and doing my GCSEs, and I remember back then not having the musical skill to play it properly on the piano so only half understanding how it sounded til my teacher could help. But then, of course, she couldn't stay with me for long, so I was back to guess-work and swearing. I remember working out minor/major triads mathematically (how many half steps...?) on paper. And just...generally things being harder. Like trying to look at a giant mural with a match for light.

Now we have this website which over the course of a few evenings reminded me of all the basic music theory I knew and had forgotten in an easy to understand, bite-sized way, and then provided fucking TOOLS like CHORD CALCULATORS and CHORD PROGRESSION GRAPHS to help me.

And now, fifteen years later, building off a rusty recollection of I, IV and V chords going well together and a bunch of TOTALLY FREE SHIT FROM THE INTERNET, I have composed a song! And...like, you guys, I think it's good?

I mean, I have to be honest, I was raised in a culture that focused more on music than most. I was lucky that I was able to have subsidised group lessons (and a year or so of private ones) for most of my childhood. I had the chance to play in orchestras. The fact I can read sheet music (however haltingly when it comes to Treble Clef) is an enormous advantage here. I'm not saying that I came at this out of nowhere.

But...but GUYS. It's like the first time I made 10 seconds of vid and just had to rewatch and rewatch and rewatch.

I simultaneously feel like I have uncovered a great, sleeping talent, like, holy shit, I CAN DO THIS? I CAN COMPOSE MUSIC? I AM MAGIC. HOW. HOW AM I DOING THIS. While at the same time wanting to run around screaming at everybody to wake up because if I can compose music this means you can too! Like this great, hidden secret that's been concealed from us and that I want to share with everyone.

So I present to you:

A Song in E Major for People with Large Hands because it's full of 10th intervals which I shouldn't really have used probably



So, uh, yeah.

Hopefully those of you who've seen me exploding over twitter don't think I oversold it too much. Half of my excitement is the high of successfully finishing it.

But, um, I guess yeah. I'm proud of myself - I think it sounds pretty good for a sort-of-first-attempt-in-fifteen-years.

I hope you guys like it too. All 81 seconds of it.

<3
beccatoria: (atris vs nihilus)
Okay, so, I rarely talk about this here, but I regularly play tabletop RPGs. Loads of different stuff over the years - White Wolf, D&D, Mutants & Masterminds, Homebrew Wackiness. The point is, pretty much every Sunday, me and my husband and a few of our friends spend the day gaming. (For the uninitiated, I'm basically talking about Dungeons & Dragons - that game where you sit around with paper and dice pretending to be Elves and Barbarians, fighting Orcs and selling treasure.)

There have been times when our games have been irregular. While we were in Korea, we didn't game at all, and while K was very sick we went for months between games sometimes. But for the majority of my adult life, this has been a weekly ritual. And two of us (K & Addy) I've known since I was 18. I'm 31 right now.

The reason I don't talk about it much isn't lack of enthusiasm. I mean, like everything else, it waxes and wanes, but you don't devote most of your Sunday to a thing you don't enjoy. It's because the best metaphor I've heard for RPG games is that it's like sex: you can't do it with anyone in the room who isn't participating because you start thinking about how dumb you look. Add into that the fact that we're talking about stories and characters and situations that none of you have knowledge of or investment in, and me squeeing about the latest plot twist in my decade-long RPG game becomes a rather one-sided interaction. And if you did think it was cool, what then? It's not like when you indulgently listen to a friend rant about their favourite TV show for six hours, where there is at least the possibility that you'll find it intriguing enough to go off and watch it.

Our stories are largely unrecorded, except in memory. We speak to each other about them. We are a fandom of four. But there is something magical in it: a television show written, scripted, acted, purely by us, for us. When we are disappointed or upset with it, we can talk and change things. The themes and storylines we care about get developed. The characters we care about get the narrative attention. When thing go badly, it sucks monkey fuck, but when things go well it as artistically valid and creatively collaborative as anything I've ever seen.

I need to stop, at this point, and explain something:

We do not play Dungeons & Dragons "properly". We do not, generally ever, go down into cave systems and try to solve logic puzzles, try to outmaneuver little models on square grids, and note down the exact experience point value of everything we killed. We do not play RPG games as board games with some extra descriptive flourishes. I do not mean that as an indictment of board games, I just mean... What we do is on a much further point along that spectrum. If you have played White Wolf game systems, our approach fits much better into that model.

We tell stories.

More accurately, K tells stories. I feel self-conscious, seeing as I'm married to the dude, (and seeing as the fawning GM's girlfriend is one of tabletop's most staple misogynistic stereotypes), praising him so unequivocally. But seriously. For a long time I aspired to be a writer, or at least more of a writer than I am now. I can do words. I know from brutal, personal experience, that plots are fucking hard. Not for him though. Or at least, you'd never know it.

He tells these incredible, intricate, complicated, beautiful stories. He makes these huge worlds for us to explore and takes into account the characters we've created. He spends hours doing preparation each week. Like thematically, he writes us arcs, without telling us, for us to experience and react to and maybe resolve differently than he expected. He's not rigid about it; when we surprise him, he is elated. When the dice throw us for a loop and let us succeed or fail unexpectedly, he works out how this will add a new, interesting wrinkle to the fabric of the story. He once sat on a plot twist for ten years.

I feel guilty, sometimes, that he doesn't write stories for everyone to read - that his preferred artistic medium is so unshareable. But he says it's honestly what he prefers; his favourite hobby. So I guess I should just feel lucky instead.

The reason I'm writing this right now is that we just finished a game - The Monk's Tale. We started it over a decade ago. We didn't play it solidly for that time. In fact, there was more than one hiatus of several years. But we always came back to it in the end. It became unkillable. It became reflective of who we were. During that time, friends turned out to be terrible people, friends who were wonderful people left us for terrible reasons, we made new friends, we changed, we had crises of faith, we were angry, we got better.

It sounds lame to say it, but it helped us through some weird times. The places the story didn't quite fit together anymore or where people were acting out of character just...became like scar tissue. Like a textural reflection of the time and place and people we were with when that part of the story was being told. Like testimony.

A story we told each other over the course of 12 years and all the moods we were in when we told it.

My character's name was Skai. When I started playing her I knew two things: she was a necromancer and a social worker. She was sensible. She was friendly. She was not dramatic. By the end she was a batshit glorious half-Succubus ex-Prophet who apprenticed herself to a disgraced Paladin and swore she only upended her society's entire social and religious structure as a by-product of her quest to kill the Nine Horsemen of the Apocalypse with a bow she stole from the Fairy King. It was a quest to kill her brother, or at least, the monster he would become if she didn't change the future. A future that might have arisen from her decision to make herself half-a-devil, which she did to protect herself from him before she knew he was her future-brother, corrupted by a future-devilish-her.

She brought a pantheon of powers to its knees in a fit of pure rage. She helped convince a machine to become a god. She became terrible at human interaction. Lonely, maybe. Uncertain she still was able to love anything honestly (except her daughter).

She collected lovers like sea-shells - though it was her soul that was hollow; that promised oceans and delivered echoes. People died for her (how terribly, romantically dramatic) and worse (unromantic, undramatic, unfixable - tragedies in all their banal cruelty). In the end she was left with a deposed cartographer prince and her lost friend's betrayed fiancee: the boy she couldn't couldn't control and the girl she wouldn't. A man who drew maps and a woman who guarded gates, and I suppose you'd need both to find and keep her heart.

That's where I left her.

I have played this character my entire adult life.

And now I'm done. I think that's a milestone worth marking. Even if it makes me shift a little awkwardly in public.

It's okay, though. None of us felt it was right to end it all, so we're going to start a game about the Next Generation. On both a meta and non-meta level, we know we can't possibly top a 10 year game of Good vs Evil for the fate of the Planes of Existence. So we decided it was obvious. What would the children of famous heroes do? Knowing they can never escape the shadow of their parents' heroism?

DROP OUT AND BECOME THE GREATEST ROCK STARS OF ALL TIME.

That's right. We're all playing Bards. All of us. It's going to be amazing. And completely different.

The game is dead. Long live the game.
beccatoria: (vid all the things!)
Shamelessly stolen from [personal profile] frayadjacent and [personal profile] chaila! Give me a number (or a few) and I will try to answer things! Some numbers are missing because my intelligent predecessors went through combing for questions they didn't think they'd be so interested in, but I'm, um, lazy, so I just copy-pasted one of their lists and ran with it. YAY ME.

1. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-vid.
2. Is there a genre or style you've yet to try your hand at, but really want to?
3. Is there a genre or style you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole?
4. How many vid ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?
5. Share one of your strengths.
6. Share one of your weaknesses.
7. Point to a section from one of your favorite vids you've made and explain why you're proud of it.
8. Which vid was the hardest to make?
9. Which vid was the easiest to make?
11. Is there a section of canon above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?
12. What's the best vidding advice you've ever come across?
13. What's the worst vidding advice you've ever come across?
14. If you only could vid one show/movie for the rest of your life, which show/movie would it be?
15. Do you work mostly from start to finish, or do you vid sections out of order?
16. Do you use any tools, like clip notes or storyboards?
18. Describe your perfect vidding conditions.
19. How many times do you usually revise your vid before posting?
20. Choose a section from one of your earlier vids and talk about whether and how you'd do it differently now. (Person sending the ask is free to make suggestions).
21. If you were to revise one of your older vids from start to finish, which would it be and why?
22. Have you ever deleted one of your published vids?
23. What do you look for in a beta?
24. Do you beta yourself? If so, what kind of beta are you?
25. How do you feel about collaborations?
26. Share three of your favorite vidders and why you like them so much.
27. Do you accept prompts?
28. Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your vids being canon compliant?
30. How do you feel about crack?
31. Which is your favorite site for posting vids?
32. Talk about your current vids in progress.
33. Talk about a comment or review that made your day.
34. Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?
beccatoria: (the legend of this chick)
Avatar cartoons. Yup, that's what's been going on lately. I watched them ALL. Like, really quickly cus they were so good. So good. People had been telling me for years, and I didn't listen. I was such a fool.

But now I am enlightened! And, obviously, full of thoughts. Mostly about Korra and expectations and the ways in which it is saddled with an impossible task.

First, though, Avatar: The Last Airbender! Because, wow, that show is a beautiful, beautiful thing. So many narratives that were just...more than I thought they'd be at the start. More subtle, more thoughtful, more touching, more heartbreaking.

The Last Airbender feelings spam! )

So of course, next, I wanted to watch Korra. Because all that but about a girl? Yes. YES PLEASE.

And then, I was warned, it was not so great, and so I went in forearmed, and I think that helped me, because the first season was not so great. And the others have been...well parts have been wonderful and parts have been confusing, and that's what I have gathered you all here today to talk about!

So Book One was sort of not great... )

Book Two was much better! )

And then we get to Book Three which was mostly lovely yet left me with some uncomfortable questions about the future... )

I need Book 4 like yesterday.
beccatoria: (one atavistic motherfucker)
I'M NOT DEAD!

I do need to find more time to post here. So to start with, I was just inspired to write something reasonably lengthy over on tumblr, so I'm actually going to copy it here because god but I loathe tumblr as a space for complex human interaction or discussion. And this is my place of Archiving Thoughts.

Also I think we all just have to accept that a large percentage of this blog will be Comic Books for the forseeable future. I'm genuinely sorry. <3

So the setup:

There was a text post as follows:

MARVEL: *makes Avengers*
MARVEL: *makes Iron Man, Thor, Hulk, and Captain America sagas*
MARVEL: *makes Agents of Shield*
MARVEL: *makes Guardians of the Galaxy*
MARVEL: *makes Black Widow movie*
DC: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...... MORE BATMAN.


To which there was then a response effectively composed of animated .gifs of DC's television/film output from the last decade, but unusually including all the stuff Warner Brothers makes based on DC properties that aren't part of DC's main superhero universe but were published under various imprints (primarily Vertigo).

I sort of wasn’t going to reblog it because it was a little petty? But then I saw the “makes Black Widow movie” and got bitter because what the hell, if you're going to do that, I'm going to pretend there's obviously an upcoming Wonder Woman film and that they're casting Dwayne Johnson as Shazam and SCREW IT I SUCCUMBED TO PETTY BITTERNESS!

But I also reblogged it because I really liked that it included DC's Vertigo output in there, but...I've been wondering for a while now how that stuff should figure into the conversations we have about these companies and/or about their shared superhero universes.

This is a genuine question to which I have no good answer. Because DC and Marvel generally ship a comparable number of titles; DC more often ship slightly more but that includes all their Vertigo stuff (as well as, I think, more licensed comics, though particularly with Star Wars, that may be shifting).

And on the one hand, it’s only fair to compare like with like - superheroes with superheroes. That’s a specific genre with representational problems, and it’s a specific type of story we all love (or well, us superhero fans do, I mean). Vertigo publishing a 70s gangster comic, a revenge-thriller, a creepy supernatural book and a retold set of fairytales, all starring women, doesn’t fix my problem if what I want is a woman in spandex punching a volcano. It really doesn’t. The Losers’ majority poc team doesn’t fix the whiteness of superhero universes.

"Go somewhere else," isn’t a useful response.

"We do that stuff, but in our Vertigo line," sends a message of ghettoisation.

But at the same time, Vertigo forms part of DC’s output and almost never figures into conversations about what DC is doing, media-wise. They put time and resources into maintaining an imprint that specifically exists to publish original “indie” style comic books, even though they could almost certainly make more by putting out another Bat-related title.

I mean, a certain amount of this is nostalgia. I’m probably a comic book fan at ALL because of Vertigo in the 90s, and I think that’s likely true of a lot of women my age. Karen Berger probably did more than anyone else in the industry to normalise the graphic novel and its place on the shelves of our bookstores. (And I guess I also think it’s cool that Vertigo has only ever been headed up by women; Shelly Bond succeeded Karen Berger).

But…okay, knowing Watchmen is somehow a DC property is probably not that unusual, but I honestly wonder how many people know that movies like Red, the Losers, Road to Perdition and Stardust are all also based on graphic novels and comic series originally published by DC?

Probably not many?

And like I said, I think you can use these points to dodge the issue. Agent Carter is a big deal because a woman is anchoring a TV series - they are making superhero-related media starring a women. Pointing out that DC (well, it’s parent company) are putting out iZombie, which also stars a woman, isn’t a cleanly relevant parallel.

But it also seems sort of shitty to pretend iZombie isn’t there.

Also amusingly nowhere in that gifset did I see the 2004 Catwoman movie. There are just some things no one can bring themselves to mention voluntarily... (Lol, except me: SKIN LIKE LIVING MARBLE!)

Anyway, yeah. There is my unanswered question. I hope you've all had a nice month while I've been in posting limbo. :)
beccatoria: (saga the comic)
Title: I'll Run (out of time)
Video: Revolutionary Girl Utena
Audio: Run To You // Pentatonix
Summary: I can't save you, but I can try
Vidder's Notes: Vidukon 2014 Premiere!



Direct download available here. RightClickSaveAs. 102 megs approx.

Cross-posted to [livejournal.com profile] vidding and [community profile] vidding

Other vids available here.
beccatoria: (Default)
OKAY! SO I've been gone a long time because this month has been soooo busy. In addition to a lot of VidUKon prep (IT'S IN TWO WEEKS! EVERYBODY PANIC!) I also had the very cool opportunity to get involved in the My So-Called Secret Identity Kickstarter. I made the promotional video!

You can see it here:

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/mscsi/my-so-called-secret-identity

You can also read the first four issues at:

www.mysocalledsecretidentity.com

Like, I think the project itself is cool? But also like, I MADE A THING GO LOOK AT IT. I would make you all stick it to your fridges if I could, but since I can't, I'm just going to point at it and wave my arms around a lot.

Also yeah, that is where I've been and what I've been doing. :)

Just in time to get given overtime at work! :P
beccatoria: (diana of themiscyra)
I know, I know, this doesn't look good for me. I'm turning into some terrible DC apologist.

But okay, let's unpack that statement for a minute, because there's a lot of stuff, in comics in general, and at DC in particular, I feel no need to defend, and quite often an overpowering need to scream about. Or just hide under a rock and ignore because it's too depressing. That said, my perception of a weird media bias against DC and in favour of Marvel bugs me to an increasing degree. Basically because I feel like it doesn't hold people accountable in the way they should be held to account, and I think it ends up ignoring success stories and examples of positive attempts at change. It's just...since I think this narrative is broken, I worry all we're doing is holding a biased conversation that won't get us any actual improvement.

So...I kind of didn't talk a lot about this for a long time because it's not a popular opinion, and because it's hard to defend a thing without it seeming like you're excusing everything it does, which isn't my intention.

But I was reading a recent article from ComicsAlliance on DC comics' New 52 and how many had been cancelled, and comparisons to Marvel's Marvel NOW initiative (which isn't a reboot but is a sort of...relaunch/rebranding initiative) all about how Marvel are doing it so much better. Based on...basically nothing I could understand and it mostly seemed to harp on about how DC can't possibly sustain publishing 52 titles a month and how it needs a new tactic to reach new readers, all the while ignoring the fact that DC no longer publishes 52 titles a month and they're trialing a new tactic of weekly comics. Which may be the world's stupidest idea. Who knows! But it is super weird this article didn't even talk about it!

And it struck me: here is a place where I think I can demonstrate my point and achieve some kind of catharsis. What the fuck is this article:

http://comicsalliance.com/dc-comics-new-52-47-cancelation/

I'm going to break it down point by point and hopefully illustrate why I think it's biased.

My goal is not to point out that therefore DC is all roses and happy shiny editors who never pointlessly intefere in otherwise successful books. My point is not to say that there are no problems with audience outreach. My point is that the underpinning logic of this article is broken. In some really weird ways. That seem predicated on a lot of generous assumptions about Marvel's business tactics based on three months of solicitations and wilfully ignoring everything earlier than December 2013. In ways that seem indicative of fandom and the comics press' general tendency to award Marvel for effort and punish DC for failure.

This is long. This is really fucking long. I tried to cut it down, I did. I couldn't. I was too filled with the need to destroy it.

The short version is: the article's assertion that Marvel is more patient when it comes to allowing its new titles to find a footing and flourish is divorced from any reality involving sales data, and while I'm very pleased they're making an effort to change their behaviour and actually publish titles featuring women and poc in the title roles, these books are younger than some of the food in my cupboards and not a numerical improvement on what DC tried to do with its reboot, so forgive me for wanting to see how many are still standing next year and whether they're replaced by similar titles, before I believe Marvel have cracked the secret code to making the comics industry less shitty. Plus, you know, that whole thing where the dude keeps commenting on DC's current sales tactics while never actually mentioning DC's newest sales tactic.

That really is the meat of it. But if you want to read that in vastly more detail (I don't really recommend it), then follow the cut.

This article. This fucking article. )
beccatoria: (vid all the things!)
Poll #15354 What Should I Put Into VidUKon's Vidder's Choice Show?
Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: Just the Poll Creator, participants: 12

VID SHOWDOWN! THERE CAN BE ONLY ONE!

Counting Stars because WONDER WOMAN!
10 (83.3%)

I Say Fever because FARSCAPE!
2 (16.7%)



Because I'm torn. I'm probably leaning towards Counting Stars, because Diana, but also, I actually think that I Say Fever is one of the better vids I've ever done, but it's for a fifteen year old show, buried in a 30 day vidding project and maybe this'd be a nice way to say, hey, you know, look at this thing I made because I think a lot of people will already have seen Counting Stars? But also, Counting Stars. And it's more of a crowdpleaser, I think.

My indecision!

(Or convince me of a totally different vid in the comments, if you are so inclined...)
beccatoria: (diana of themiscyra)
Right, I've been gone forever. I spent the first half of April in the USA for my grandpa's funeral (well, memorial service, he was cremated right after he died, but people wanted to take time to organise a big memorial service when scattered family could all attend). It was good to see some people I haven't seen in a really long time. It was also sad.

Anyway, I came back and then there was a whole bunch of VidUKon stuff to get organised with, plus a load of house-related stuff I just didn't deal with after moving in but before going on vacation.

But also...I don't know. Journalling communities are kind of dying, it feels like. I'm not helping with that, even though I like them better. But they take more time and investment. Tumblr and twitter can suck up just as much time but you feel yourself interacting constantly. There's just non-stop entertainment. It's not me on my own madly typing into a computer. I like the time-sink-grab-bag-of-cool-stuff that tumblr offers and I like the way of easily keeping in touch with so many people that twitter offers.

But I've realised I don't like the way both of them make it hard to engage in wider conversations. Twitter's too brief, and tumblr - it's...far more based around friends running at you and yelling, "THIS IS AWESOME!" or "THIS IS HORRIFYING!" Everything you see comes with implicit approval or disapproval; you don't just "find" stuff, it's always being presented in the context of who's showing it to you. It has a tendency to echo chamber because it's basically people passing around stuff they find cool. Which is a really neat thing about it. Until you...don't agree with what people are saying. Then it becomes really hard both because tumblr also has a terrible format for longer discussion and because culturally, I don't really feel it's built for it. It's built for squee and outrage and it does those things really well as group activities. In forums people react to things with words - things that aren't necessarily being said by people they already know. In journal communities, people link to and talk about stuff and say "hey this is smart, I agree with this!" but usually with added words. It's a point from which you jump off and talk about stuff and even if it's not your intention, that means you get a ton of different reactions to the same thing, not a ton of identical reblogs. It feels less monolithic.

I dunno. That's my experience anyway. It makes being on the "wrong" side of an issue kind of lonely. You don't want to harsh people's squee. You don't want to look like an asshole. It's hard to say, "Guys I think this is kind of misjudged..." when the thing you're talking about's terribleness is basically a meme. Especially if your point isn't that it's all sugary deliverance.

But also I'm getting tired of feeling like I don't want to say stuff. It's making me as tired as saying stuff and then feeling like I'm being a jerk.

So probably the answer is just to realise that I'm not a tumblr person. Or like, I am, but...not for the talking. I should do my talking here.

It's honestly a little intimidating. Which makes me feel very "tiniest violin." So whatever.

I don't get why people give Marvel so many free passes. That "lol, DC can't get out a Wonder Woman film but Marvel have a RACCOOOOON!" meme can die in a goddamn fire.

How does that make Marvel look good? Why are we using the fact that Marvel are making an offbeat minor-character ensemble movie with one woman, before they've managed to make a single movie ABOUT a woman, as some sort of evidence that they're better at this shit? When they've gotten to a place where they've made so many of these movies, they can do things like Guardians of the Galaxy and Ant-Man and they still choose them over Captain Marvel or Black Widow?

Especially since it seems to have been resurrected with this latest round of movie news. So now the fact that DC may be also doing an offbeat minor-character movie with a token woman (Metal Men) before they've managed to make a film about their iconic female character STILL means this is an appropriate comparison? It's the EXACT SAME FUCKING SITUATION.

I don't. I just don't.

Marvel releases a movie with a Space Raccoon before they have a female lead: sign of their adorable wackiness!

DC potentially releasing Metal Men before they have a female lead: DEAR GOD THE MISOGYNY.

Okay, I genuinely feel better for having gotten that off my chest.

One day soon, you can all look forward to me ranting about the Cap 2/Man of Steel comparisons, but I should probably save that for another day.

(Don't worry, I like Steve Rogers, I wouldn't actually shoot a puppy.)
beccatoria: (srsly the password is ALONE gtfo macbeth)
So, for reasons that are complicated and boring and not entirely unrelated to a reflexive pushback against yet another attempt to get me to watch A:TLA (which I DO want to watch one day, but the last time he pushed it, I went and watched the entirety of Gargoyles instead, so basically his insistence and my YOU'RE NOT MY DAD! childishness is leading to some rather interesting education in 90s animated telly), I finally watched Revolutionary Girl Utena.

Which people have basically been telling me to watch since I discovered I adored Martian Successor: Nadesico (another 90s anime) but was sort of hovering somewhere towards the lower end of my "to do" list of media because I have a complicated relationship with anime. I want to love it. I feel like I should love it. It's an endless supply of amazing, complicated fantasy/sci fi stories, without the same kind of budget limitations because they're animated, that tell complete season-long stories, so I don't have to cry when it inevitably jumps the shark, and the fact it's animated doesn't bug me at all.

That said, I find a lot of the tropes and stock characters really distracting and sometimes straight-up gross. Some of that I overcome through immersion in the series, particularly if it plays its surreal hyperreality sections well in the context of the narrative (Nadesico with its crew-of-misfits humour, Utena with its straight up magic realism). It's always tricky calling out things you find offensive (or even empowering) across cultural lines, not cus other cultures should get a pass at treating people badly, but because you lack context. While trying to work out some of my thoughts on this, I read a couple of really interesting articles about the way Western audiences interpret anime. One I found particularly fascinating was the fact that some of the Magical Girl series that are touted in the West as being strongly feminist are, in Japan, primarily aimed at adult men who fetishize the cuteness and even infantilisation of the main characters. Another complicated and fascinating area was the way characters that are commonly interpreted in the West as transgender or genderqueer would in Japan be interpreted as an assault on brutally rigid gender roles rather than cisnormative identities.

And like, how do you navigate that? From my uneducated position, I don't see that there's much conflict between a kid in Britain watching Utena and seeing someone affirmatively genderqueer and a kid in Japan watching it and seeing a girl assert her identity as female through nontraditional means. But I think it gets more complicated if you know something may have an actively negative connotation in its original context, even if that context is invisible to you before it's pointed out? Fortunately, I don't believe Utena is not one of those series that is misogynistic in its original context - or at least, not in the ways I outline above. But as we'll get to, there are things about it that leave me slightly uneasy, as well as things I think are completely fascinating.

It's essentially impossible to talk about, well, anything without spoilers, so if you plan to watch it and are strictly spoiler avoidant, it's probably best to skip the upcoming cut. However, I will do my best to keep this at a "review" level of spoilers for those interested in reading on.

Minor spoilers + discussion of statutory rape follows. )

I think...if you have tried watching anime before and the format isn't your thing, then this won't be either. But if you have watched it before or if you haven't and want to some, give this a shot.

The last thing I'll say is that if you watch this, for the love of god, watch the subbed not the dubbed version. I am not usually picky about that kind of thing. I often watch the dubs even when I know they're sorta shoddy and just deal with the not-so-amazing voice actors because I'm lazy. I'm a terrible person and I mutilate art.

But in this case, please, please, please do not do that. I actually went back and rewatched the episodes I did watch dubbed when I realised what a terrible mistake I was making. The problem is that Anthy, a pivotal character, whose emotional arc completely depends on being able to tell whether she means what she's saying or she's faking it via her tone of voice, is voiced by an awful voice actress. I don't know if she's just plain bad or had weird direction or what, but she acts like a cheerful, vacant Stepford Wife the entire time. Like during explosively personal, painful scenes, she's like...Barney the Dinosauring, "I'm sorry! I caused you so much pain! Silly old me!" Argh.

Just...for your own sanity, use the sub.

Also, I have discovered that Welcome to Night Vale and Revolutionary Girl Utena make the most beautiful mashups. I am completely obsessed with the perfection of this tumblr. It honestly makes me feel like I understand RG:U better. Which...probably tells you something about its storytelling style.

Anyway.

It has been too long since I posted, and now this post is also too long. So I bid you all sweet dreams.
beccatoria: (vid all the things!)
I just wanted to thank everyone for the really kind words you all left on my last entry. I didn't have the...well, energy I guess, to reply individually, just because I was still a bit messy and sad, but I genuinely appreciated every single one. Thank you all for such thoughtful and attentive comments. It really made my days better getting them.

In slightly happier news, registration for VidUKon is open! And this year it will be super exciting because if you purchase a non-attending ticket (for the princely sum of £16!) not only will you get a programme (with your name in) and a premieres DVD, you will also get entry to VirtUKon! Which will be a virtual convention. Yes! The vidshows will go up, streaming (where possible), in REAL TIME, complete with comments to discuss with the masses of other virtual attendees who will surely be there in droves!

We are also looking into livestreaming some panels. This is, of course, our pilot year, and this will depend on several things, but one of them is getting enough subscribers to our YouTube channel so that we can enable livestreaming. It's a totally doable goal and we're a good way there already, but if you'd be willing to head over to our YouTube Channel and subscribe to us, you would be the most awesome person ever.

In the meantime, for a taste of what VirtUKon will be like, our previous cons are already up at the site! Just pick the year that you want to view...
beccatoria: (srsly the password is ALONE gtfo macbeth)
Hey dudes.

So, festivids is happening. That's a thing. Apparently it's pretty cool and full of awesome vids you should be watching?

I really haven't had time to sit down and go through them like I wanted to. That's sort of a lie, I've had the time, but not the inclination. Basically January has been kicking my ass. The short version is, my grandpa died. The long version is, a bunch of stuff happened and then my grandpa died. )

January 2014, ladies and gentleman. I will not miss you.
beccatoria: (vid all the things!)
Yes, it's late. I'm late with everything. I'm behind with everything! I haven't posted in forever! In my defense the last month has been not only holiday season but also I now have a house which is pretty fucking amazing (and down to a lot of help, I am acutely aware of how lucky I am), but required time and cleaning and work done and...things. Also for the last week I have been really fucking sick. I THINK I'm starting to feel better now. I hope.

Anyway, I didn't vid much of anything this year, comparatively, which is a little sad. But, oh well.

2012 | 2011 | 2010 | NaViMaMo 2010 | 2009 | 2008

THE VIDS! )

THE QUESTIONS! )
beccatoria: (abbie + ichabod)
Title: Hymn to the Hollow
Video: Sleepy Hollow
Audio: Hymn of Acxiom // Vienna Teng
Summary: Nothing is forgotten, unseen, unimportant. [Abbie, Ichabod, Katrina, Jenny]
Warning: Very fast flickering cuts (less than a frame long).
Notes: Part of the Aims Vid Album project heroically organised by [personal profile] silly_cleo!

Direct download available here. 81 megs approx. RightClickSaveAs.



Cross-posted to [livejournal.com profile] vidding, [community profile] vidding and [community profile] sleepy_hollow.

Other vids available here.

Lyrics )
beccatoria: (diana of themiscyra)
So! The next Superman film is going to feature Wonder Woman. She will be played by Gal Gadot, who's best known for her role in the recent Fast & Furious movies.

Obviously everyone on every side (including myself) then proceeded to have a meltdown.

I'm not shocked by the bullshit dismissive judgemental fanboy reactions proclaiming her a terrible actress because she was in a car movie, or because she has an accent, or because how dare they put Wonder Woman in this film anyway, they ought to be focusing on Superman vs Batman, or because her boobs aren't big enough (and yes, I saw all these, if not after this announcement, then certainly when Gadot was leaked as one of the front-runners for the then-unnamed female lead role).

I'm also not shocked by the instant reactions on the other side - Snyder will destroy her because he wrote Sucker Punch, it's probably a cynical reaction to the success of Frozen and the Hunger Games, how dare they put her in a supporting role about the two dudes, not her own film. I most certainly don't mean to imply by putting these claims in opposition that the latter equivalent to the former. I have a great deal of sympathy for fears that this will get fucked up, and there are reasons to believe it will. The idea that it might be good is almost as terrifying to me as the idea that it could be bad because it requires investment and hope and trust that I don't really have. I understand the desire to voice these concerns, to reflexively inoculate oneself against raised expectations. And let's face it, Sucker Punch was fucking offensive.

But I also think that there are some solid reasons why introducing her this way, and this casting choice, may bode well for the movie, or at least not as badly as some fear. So as an exercise in not panicking before I have to, I'm going to list them. Ten Points of It Might Not Be Awful!

Fair warning; some of this is cynical and pragmatic. This is engineering not philosophy.

10 Points! )

Okay.

I have reacted, even if I'm still not sure how I feel. *facepalm*
beccatoria: (batwoman: blood on the snow)
Okay. So firstly, I apologise for my long absence. I've been sort of busy with real world things as well as a number of side projects for various things and I may have become obsessed with a 90s cartoon. But I'll talk about that later, because this is a sort of...sober post.

For those not aware, allegations have been surfacing over the past few weeks, culminating in the past few days, that comic author Brian Wood serially harasses women at conventions, despite having a public reputation as a feminist ally. These allegations are troubling, upsetting and not fun. My opinion of the industry response has been...mixed. I am not an enormous Wood fan myself, although I did respect his attitudes on many things from afar and currently buy at least one of his books (about which more below).

This is a story that I've been following since the beginning, but one which has developed in fragments. As a result, when the story proper broke yesterday, it was no longer clear why this person, why now, why in this way, or even, what exactly had been asserted and when.

I've decided to put together a resource timeline, with editorial commentary, followed by my own thoughts.

Timeline: this is a train wreck. And a really long one. )

Related developments. )

Further personal thoughts. )

This isn't complete, but it is, I hope...completeish.

ETA: As I reference above in relation to several articles, but also as I do not want missed by the majority who will not slog through it all, this timeline got a lot more attention than I ever imagined it would. This was surprising and humbling. I hope that it has been useful to you. If you have comments on its content or accuracy, I would be glad to hear them.
beccatoria: (diana of themiscyra)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAILA! I MADE YOU A VID ABOUT WONDER WOMAN to pop music sung by a boy! This may have been the reason I was suspiciously helpful when you were asking me about source the other week. I BET THAT WAS TOTALLY UNSUSPICIOUS.

Anyway, you are awesome, I'm so glad I know you. Have a vid. <3

Title: Counting Stars
Video: DC Animated [Wonder Woman]
Audio: Counting Stars // OneRepublic
Summary: All the things that we could be.
Note: There's some strobing effects in this.

Direct download available here. 92 megs approx. RightClickSaveAs.



Cross-posted to [livejournal.com profile] vidding

Other vids available here.

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